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[Oct. 25th, 2008|10:21 pm] |
Everyone has heard the common phrase "home is where the heart is." Lately, I've been in such a state of limbo. I'm sure, everyone has felt this abnormality, not knowing exactly where you belong. However, I don't think home is an actual place. Home is people. The people that you genuinely love and adore are home, and without them, you feel misplaced and entirely burdened down. It's so true, that without those people so close to your soul, something is missing. Whenever, a person owns a home they feel an obligation to tenderly guard their home and take care of it. Likewise, the people we qualify as our "home," we feel obligated to watch over and assure that they are indeed--okay. This obligation is not forced, but the matter of the will and endurance.
So, while everyone is in this state of "where is my home?" I believe we should focus on the people in our lives, and begin to carve a home in them.
A few weeks ago, I spent time carving a pumpkin out and honestly it was a big mess by the time I finished. My goal was to carve a glorious hot air balloon, but 3/4 of the way through, I was frustrated and had to throw my hands in the air.
If you think about it, any new person or pumpkin you carve a home into, takes time, endurance and patience. As individuals, we must take the time to grow into our homes and fully appreciate them. We have to learn when to fight and to refrain, while maintaining a futuristic outlook. Moreover, we have to understand that the unconventionally beautiful require the patience to press forward.
In reality, our home is not a place or building, but who are hearts connect with and find safety. Therefore in this time of uncertainty, I believe we all must take a deep breath in and carve with precision and patience into the homes of each others hearts. |
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[Sep. 13th, 2008|10:51 pm] |
You can never find the right person if you can never let go of the wrong, but at the same time, the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.
-Unknown |
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[Aug. 24th, 2008|06:29 pm] |
I'm sitting here right now and tomorrow is the first day of college. I'm starting to get pretty well adjusted to everything around me. Though, my sleeping habits are way off. I'll probably go to bed at 8:00 tonight and hopes of catching up on my sleep. Everything is happening so fast I don't really know what to do with myself. I am trying really hard to uphold everything I promised myself at the beginning of the summer. However, I don't think I've kept any of them.
It's just such a strange feeling to realize the majority of my friendships are over or on a waiting list for a few months.
I have so much on my mind, but I can barely keep my eyes open.
'Disturb us, Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves. When our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little. When we arrive safely because we have sailed too close to the shore. Disturb us, Lord.' - Sir Francis Drake |
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[Jun. 8th, 2008|08:25 pm] |
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"When we are hurting, it doesn't matter how much we know about doctrine or theology. What we really need to know is Jesus. To walk with him. Talk to him. Crawl into his lap and let him hold us for a while. Perhaps we'll never say, 'Jesus is all I need' until he is all we have." -Max Lucado |
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[Apr. 5th, 2008|04:44 pm] |
1)What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
Shanee, friend.
2)What is wrong with you right now?
I'm rather bored & tired of things.
3)Do you miss your first love?
no
4)When did you last cry?
The last time I really cried was a few nights ago.
5)Who do you hate?
I just dislike people.
7)Are you happy?
hm. I'm close to being content.
8)Are you shy around the person you like?
no
9)What do you smell like?
brilliant brunette shampoo.
10)What are you drinking?
nothing at the moment.
11)What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
blankie
12)Last movie you watched at home?
I think it was One flew over the cuckoo's nest
13)What do you wear to bed?
depends on the weather. sometimes nothing,sometimes a bra and underwear. then somedays it's a sweatshirt and pants.
14)Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I think everyone does.
15)What are you doing/did today?
tennis, I'm not sure about later.
16)Is your shirt new?
no
17)Are you afraid of bugs?
no
18)Are you hiding something?
Aren't we all.
19) Are you a cuddler?
I like to spoon.
20)How many people have you kissed in the past month?
one
21)What do you think of Eminem?
I don't think about Eninem.
22)Do you read?
yes, all the time.
23)Do you sleep with a teddy bear?
I have a blankie and a few stuffed animals.
24)Last thing that made you cry?
A dumb boy.
25)Whose house did you go to today?
Just mine.
26)Are you loved?
yes
27)are you in love?
NO.
28)Are you bored?
yes, or I wouldn't be doing this.
29)What is your favorite emotion?
harmony. passion. love.
31)Who’s house is your favorite to go to?
Sean's & Jenessa's.
32)Who was last to cook for you?
Pizza Hut
33)When you sleep, what do you dream about?
I usually don't remember my dreams, actually.
34)What’s on your mind right now?
Plans, the future, summer.
35)Who was the last person to make you cry?
myself and baby boy.
36)Name someone whose name starts with the letter "J"?
Jenessa!
37)Do you care what others think about you?
no
38)Do you trust people easily?
Not at all.
39)Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
I would like to, but who knows. Hopefully in 5 haha
41)What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
graduation, summer, camp, mtsu etc.
42)Who was the last person to call you?
My little bro.
43)Who was the last missed call?
Trent
44)What happened yesterday?
I went to a play and had a spanish competition.
45)Do you plan on moving within the next year?
Yes, to MTSU.
46)What were you doing at 9pm last Friday night?
Um. I went and saw Horton Here's a Who and went to Zach Spears' house.
47)What happened at 10:00 am today?
sleep. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2008|09:10 am] |
“All you need is Love”
The love movement created by "towriteloveonherarm" inspired me to do more. The whole concept was to literally write love on your arm the day before Valentines Day due to the excessive amounts of depression during this time of year. Also, the movement was designed for all people to have the opportunity to express their ideas of love. I felt more could be achieved and the idea of an assembly of people from all backgrounds, religions and lifestyles came to mind. Before school ON VALENTINES DAY we can meet at 6:30 in a designated location and go around in a circle sharing our thoughts on love. Each person (if comfortable) should prepare a quote, bible verse, and lyrics of a song, prayer, poem or thoughts on love. The idea is to bond in the name of love despite religious backgrounds. I personally will prepare one of each of the things listed and anyone/anything is welcome. Whether you just want to observe or say a few words. We all have used the statement “all you need is love” and it is far from being a cliché, lets really unite on a day that personifies so much more than a box of chocolates and a giant teddy bear.
P.S. If you are interested in this please let me know so I can get an idea if anyone wants to do it. I’m open to any ideas or criticisms as long as it remains constructive with out vulgarity. I need people that will for sure speak up and prepare something for that day. What do you all think?
-Lindsey Moore |
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[Jan. 12th, 2008|07:57 pm] |
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I need to know if we're still making useless progress. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2007|03:57 pm] |
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"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” - jim morrison |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2007|10:45 pm] |
Man, my mind has been in 100 different places at once today. All at once I've started to feel completely dependent upon myself for everything. Something I always wondered about myself is why I constantly feel so dissapointed just in general. I guess when you put so much focus into people, trying to make things work, or feel appreciated- you let yourself down. Tonight, I just wandered around town by myself in hopes that I would find something/someone. I sat in borders, books a million and my car for about 5 hours just wandering what was wrong with me. I can be my worst critic. Seriously, when you think things are starting to look up again, it only starts to crumble.
The worst part about it all is I can't find anyone to confine in. The past few days, I've just sprawled across my bed going back and forth between Crime and Punishment and the Discovery Channel. I'm a stickler for egyptian history.
Latley, I've sincerely prayed for God to open my eyes to things in my life that arent his will or what he wants. When you really start to open yourself up, you come to realize how desperate we all are. Man, I'm so desperate for attention and reassurance lately. That little girl in the 6th grade that wandered the hallways and prayed for a best friend- never-ever will completely dissapear. Deep inside, I'm still that awkward girl watching and waiting for something to happen to her.
I honestly wish someone would answer their phone when I need them. I wish I was taken more seriously sometimes, rather feeling so misunderstood and forgotten about. I can't allow myself to feel so bad- because I know you cant always feel joyful.
I was driving home tonight and I started to listen to the old emo songs from 8th grade, hoping I'd find some comfort like I use to. I ended up turning the song off.
When you pray for God to reveal things to you, he will. however, it's never what you truly expected. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2007|03:33 pm] |
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I'm so glad to be home.
I got a new tennis racket!
and sleeping on my own bed has healed my back.
I cant stress enough to myself to never let people or circumstances get the best of my joy.
10Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.
11Cast me not away from your presence,
and take not your Holy Spirit from me.
12Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
psalm 51:10-12 |
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[Jun. 25th, 2007|10:52 am] |
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I cant stop listening to Jefferson Airplane, lately i've realized how much better oldies are than the same old, same old. I have to admit the past 10 days have sucked because I feel like I could have been more productive in Brazil. However, I've had to give up that burden because it seriously has weighed on me for weeks.
I took a long bath in this jacoozie (sp?) at the house, my sister is sitting at 2:00. It had to be the most relaxing thing in the world. My car keeps messing up. And i've managed to back it up into a ditch and the battery died all in a matter of a week. (story of my life)
tomorrow is the launch of summer stuff at lincoln homes and i'm starting to get really nervous and hoping that people show up for it. I have had this dream for a year now so I hope things fall into place.
My hair feels really gross because I didnt feel like washing it and it has been 3 days now.
go, chase rabbits. |
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[May. 24th, 2007|02:24 pm] |
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"the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.." |
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[May. 19th, 2007|08:34 pm] |
I know that I shouldn't be worrying about college stuff yet- I just dont want to stay here. I spent about a hour saving different scholarship applications for later on. ah
I got to see Lindsey today and that was a breath of fresh air- even though i suck at shopping.
I like big trucks but not semis.
It's less than a week away before I visit Oklahoma and I'm starting to get that awkward-anticipatiion feeling. I probably should start my summer assignment because I dont want to wait to the last minute to do the AP crap. However, I am excited to read crime and punishment.
Last night I watched the lizzie mcgwire(sp???) movie and it was amazing..followed by Sweet Home Alabama. It was a pretty pathetic night because it made me think wayy to far into the future.
oh. and if you have an old ipod that you dont use, mine died and I would like to have one on the way to oklahoma/brazil.
I need to make a list. |
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[May. 11th, 2007|06:51 pm] |
These past few weeks have been really hard on me for some reason. Maybe it's just school wrapping up or the scram for the few extra credit points for the A. Today I was walking through the hallways and it hit me, next year I'll be a senior. I've had in my head the entire year I was going to move on and pack my things up- and well I'm not. This semester was a challenge for that reason- I had to start making friends in my grade or I would be miserable.
and you know what I've perceived people wrongly. I have placed a label on the few friends I'm beginning to love and I'm sorry. I wish that I wouldnt have done that with so many of you or questioned you or myself. I really miss certain people, a lot. Most of all, I miss joy. I've let that joy inside myself slowly slip away and that's not right.
I'm so blessed, more than I can even describe. I have no right to complain. I have no right to brag. I haven't allowed Christ to have my bragging rights or supply the contentment that is near if I just let go.
I've let the weights around my legs pull me down for far too long. I've held prejudices and said the wrong things, yet I feel that everything is under control.
I want to get to the point in which, I'm satisfied in knowing that my life in not my own. I need to start moving forward and preparing. I need to ready myself for what's to come, and not just wait around for it. I'm ready to go. |
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[May. 7th, 2007|03:06 pm] |
I am a terrible test taker if I overthink the questions. Therefore, I dont want to take any exams, so I got all A's first 9 weeks. BUT NO. I have a 92 right now in Ecology. YES ECOLOGY. How is it possible that I have a 101 or more in English but i have a 92 in the cop-out science class of the century. I DONT KNOW! In order for me to get an A I must "ace" the test as mrs. vaughn says. I've done extra credit, which includes going to dunbar cave and learning about snakes for a hour. NOONE in my class has an A. Shouldn't this tell her to quit her day job?
okay. I can possibly persuade her, still I wanted to earn it. :(
Also. I dont know my Honors US grade because he was gone today and I made a 91 on the last test, so it should be okay.
I know this is petty but I really do care about doing the best I can lately in school, it just sucks when you have a crappy teacher.
spiderman 3 was okay. action was good but the characters didnt develop or change. It was def. cheesy he strutted his stuff down the streets.
I like carly though. new friends are amazing.
watch all the presidents men.
bye! |
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[Apr. 27th, 2007|08:51 pm] |
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My most recent faith struggle is not one of intellect. I dont really do that anymore. Sooner or later you just figure out there are some guys who dont believe in God and they can prove He doesn't exist, and there are some other guys who do believe in God and they can prove He does exist, and the argument stopped being about God a long time ago and now its about who is smarter, and honestly I dont care. - Donald Miller |
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[Apr. 19th, 2007|09:57 pm] |
Well, over the course of this week the media has covered the shooting at VT. However, I think the focus of the coverage is twisted. Instead of focusing their energy on the victims, they are arguing and trying to uncover the life of the shooter. Every time I watch the news I rarely hear coverage on the beautiful lives that were ended so short- but of the motivation of the killer and why he did this or that. We are giving the killer exactly what he wanted by investigating the life of a young man that merely was crying for attention. That not only destroyed the lives of his victims but of those on the campus and around the US. The killer wanted to go down in history for his crime and by spending so much energy on him we lose sight of the real issue- the victims- by celebrating their lives.
In an interview Craig and Darrell Scott, family members of Rachel Joy Scott ( victim of the Columbine shooting) they talk about not forgetting about the lives of the people. Moreover, they go on to talk about speaking in numerous schools across the nation. Not only did they prevent violence breaking out in schools but a young man handed Craig a hitlist and told him that he saved lives today.
Thus, this leads me to Christ. Despite the fact that Rachel's life was cut short- her death is not in vain. Due to her death, people today can now find comfort in the experiences that the Scott family so boldy share yearly. God has a divine plan even in the midst of tragedy and that is proven day after day to me. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2007|07:41 pm] |
took the ACT.
slept a lot.
finished a book.
hung out with new friends.
played lots of tennis.
come tutor.
bye. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2007|04:15 pm] |
Today is the first day I've sat on the computer for over an hour. I like sitting and listening to Jesus Musick it makes me happy.
I truly hope that I got an A in Honors US or I will have to take one exam.
I'm actually making more effort in talking to people and I wish that I would have done this a long time ago.
I'm sorry. |
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